As usual every monday when i start work i'll think of Friday but today im not really that happy I also dunno why.....Usually when friday comes i'll be very happy maybe because for the past 1 month plus every friday i'll go out clubbing but from now onwards i decided to quit clubbing so a bit sad....Because of him i stop clubbing for 2 yrs my precious 2 yrs......what to do i dun wan him to walk back his old life style so i may need to sacrifice a bit of my lifestyle. Although im not really happy about it but when i think back it is worth for me to do so at least now he is a better man. What to do.... Love is owes selfish.....
I really think that i should consider of quiting my job do smthin better, I dun wan to do admin for the rest of my life, not like that i dun have any other qualification for other job, to think of it i really need to plan my future now as i dun have much time to drag again or not i'll surely regret for wasting my time doin things that i dun like. The worse part is that my current job have a good pay, come here do nothin pass time pass time, yet is so damn near my place, i just need to walk to work. What am i suppose to do? Should i just continue with what im doin now? Or should i persue what i really wan in life? Is there anyone that can help me? Is not that easy for me to adapt a new working enviroment, new things.....
What am i suppose to do???????????????
I've been thinking for quite smtimes but den i just dun dare to step out because i'm really afraid that i cannot accept the changes. Haiz...Guess im nothing but just a coward. No choice i dun wan to destroy my own life without proper planning. I cannot afford to lose anything. Well i guess i may need to wait for another few yrs before i make a desicion.
FRIDAY???? Why am i feeling so down this friday? Cant i be more happier? Is a long weekend...... COme on be happier!!! Is a time for some rest after such a busy week.....
I really love clubbing so much to the extent whenever i hear that i have a chance to go clubbing there is owes a smile on my face. But i should be contented with what i have now and is enough for me le should really stop.... I can never once say no to clubbing. This is smthing i must change. Whenever ppl ask to go clubbing and i cant go i'll be very very upset wan lei.... No good No good.....Shouldnt be this way....Haiz..... Im really very very bored...........
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